Tuesday, 13 May 2014

Letting Go of the Guilt

I recently made a decision to let go of all the guilt I had been feeling.  It had been building up and making me feel unhappy.

Guilt for being a WAHM.

Guilt for being a part time SAHM.

Guilt for working in the evenings.

Guilt because my girls go to their nan's every Friday I get child free time.

Guilt because I find time to read and crochet.

Guilt, Guilt, Guilt.

Someone of it I put on myself, some is projected on me by others. I see tweets and FB statuses almost berating mums that find time for themselves to do the things that like to do. They don't spend every second of the day running around after their children or constantly doing housework.

I work hard and look after my children, I keep a clean house and my OH does the same. We work as a team which means I have time to myself when I need it and so does he. I used to save all my work for the two days I week I had to work but found I was working frantically to get it all done. I felt guilty because I did work in the evening and when I didn't I felt guilty for not working. So now once the girls are in bed I sit down for an hour and work and then I spend the rest of the night with my OH.

Sometimes I crochet when we watch TV and sometimes I go to bed early to read. I carve out time for myself which means I am happier, which means my family is happy as mummy is not stressed.

I make one on one time for BG. Me and Little Miss go to toddler groups and coffee mornings guilt free.

My house is clean but cluttered. I have learnt to accept this about me and I feel good about that.

I don't iron but I cook our meals from scratch. Somehow our life has balanced out and it works for us.

I have let go of all the guilt and I am a happier woman for it.

Saturday, 10 May 2014

#40NewThings The Final List

I thought I'd better update you on our I did with my #40NewThings 

I have to admit that some days I didn't do a new thing and then others I did two or three.

We will find out together if I managed 40!

Here we go:

Off on a school night to see Russell Kane 

Learnt how to decoupage Easter eggs. 

New yarn and hooks (Just a small selection of my new stash) 

Spoke to a new mum in the park. 

New red lipstick 

Working on bunny number 4. Loving the new colours I am using 

Picked up my new prescription sunglasses 

Bunny number 4 completed 

Lovely little cruise down the Thames. 

Guess who found the Lindt shop! 

Watching rugby at the new Wembley Stadium 

Getting my burger on at @handmadeburgerco

Started Life After Life 

Orange Lindt Lindor 

My new toy 

Trying a brioche burger bun tonight 

Hosted my first twitter chat #freelancehour 

Mothers Day Daffodils given to me after my first Mothers Day lunch at BG's school 

Tea, chocolate and the new Simply Crochet #bliss 

Mummy rocking her new me&i dress 

Took BG and my dad to a preview screening of Rio 2 

Took on new client 

Made my own notice board and used my glue gun for the first time 

Bunny #5 

Bunny #6 

Started a new spring project 

Started on new client account

Went to a friends new house

Made a large chocolate Easter nest 

Took BG to see Pirate Gran at our local theatre 

Spring Garland. I am really happy with this. Its not big but it looks fab. I have glued two small magnets to the back so it can go on the fridge or be hung up. 

Little Easter Basket for BG 

Made homemade wholemeal pizza and planted load of seeds including sweet corn for the first time

Homemade Turkey Burger 

Tried a new bunny pattern

Off out with the mums tonight. We are going to bingo 

Decoupage eggs for BG's Easter Egg Hunt

Crochet a egg 

Swatching colour combinations for a baby blanket 

Painted twigs 

New Spring bunting 

Listened to new Palmo faith album
Attempted to make up my own baked rice dish but it failed terribly
Bought new clothes 

In total I did 53 new things!! I really love this project but found a new thing everyday quite tough and so often it would be little things. I am going to carry on with this but will do a big new thing each month.

My new thing for April (as well as all the things above) was running a workshop at a blog conference. Me and Pippa ran a session on the Blogger platform, it was scary but I loved it!

What new thing have you done recently?

Saturday, 3 May 2014

#theyearinbooks May

Even though April was a mad month with extra clients, the Easter holidays and a blog conference I managed to read two books! Well one and a half.

I pledge to finish Life After Life by Kate Atkinson which I started as an extra book in March. I totally loved this book and its concept. You must add it your must read list.

I was then either going to read The Rosie Project by Graeme Simsion if my reservation from the library came in or The Lemon Tree by Helen Forrester. Luckily the book was available as I finished Life After Life and I am so glad it did.

It’s not a very long book I read it in two days though one involved a long train journey. It’s a love story but very funny in places and touching. Just read it.

In May I plan to read the Pink Suit by Nicole Mary Kelby it is not out until June but I have been sent a review copy so once I have read that I will write a full review. It’s based on the true story behind Jacqueline Kennedy Onassis iconic pink suit.

My second book is The Snow Child by Eowyn Ivey I have seen people rave about it so I am looking forward to that.

What are you reading?